Since losing Mr. Virgo, I’ve always said “Nothing scares me!” The truth of the matter is, “Nothing MUCH scares me!” Something does, though. I’m afraid of the dark. Not the dark of night. No…I’m afraid of what happens when the lights dim and go out in your mind. Someone close to me is having difficulty with that right now. A couple of people, actually. And I have to tell you, that scares the crap out of me. FOR them, of course. For their loved ones who watch them withering away, their minds shutting down like faulty circuit boards on a stormy afternoon. And for me…and the impact it would have on my kids.

What must that feel like? Knowing something isn’t right. Forgetting things and knowing it’s happening. Feeling out of control, out of touch. I know at some point the disconnect is complete and you’re no longer aware. But oh, that twilight time scares me. That…awareness of not knowing. We don’t know what our lot in life will be. We can only hope and pray we will face whatever comes with dignity and grace. And trust that God will be there to carry us through.

❤️

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

John 14:27 NIV