It’s not necessarily that I’m a procrastinator so much as it’s being a Gemini. I have to be in the mood to do something or I really don’t do it well. Or I don’t stick to it. The last couple of days, I decided I felt like diving back in and working on copying the Facebook content of Marshmallow Ranch over to the website blog. It is a HUGE undertaking and sometimes it can send me down a rabbit hole. Not this time. I read and corrected any grammar errors and, even though I was terribly tempted on a few of those posts, I left everything as it was. I look at some of the posts and wonder what on EARTH I was thinking! Remember that “bandaid relationship” when I “dated” that guy from my high school class? Not a bad man, really….but certainly not MY man and certainly WAY too early.

Daughter #2 called me the other day and I told her I had run across the post where I “introduced this guy”. She said, “Oh, my gosh, Mom…what did you do?” I told her I left it like it was. It’s embarrassing that I thought I was ready to date just six months after Mr. Virgo died. But it’s also a true testament as to how totally crazy grief can make you. I know there are some who can make a relationship like that work, but for me, it was desperate cry for help. I just wanted the bleeding to stop and he was my bandaid. The thing was, once I figured that out and pulled that bandaid off…it was a hundred times worse.

I ran across the one year angelversary tribute to Mr. Virgo and instead of feeling sad, I felt proud and full of love. I wrote a loving tribute to him and it was fitting to the love we had together. I found the post where I gave his guitar to the alternative high school’s music program. The one where I had to put TOW-Wanda to bed for the winter. The only bad thing about this is I’m finding holes in the timeline where I feel posts are missing from Facebook. Another reason why I need to duplicate the content and put it on my website where it’s safe.

I’ve posted about a year of the old stories and you can find them on the website by looking at the timeline over on the right side of the page. My goal has been to get these all over there so new widows can go back and read the earlier content when things were so rough and raw. You’ll see some good ones, some sad ones, some embarrassing ones, some sweet ones. Hope you enjoy them as much as I did looking back. ❤️

“Do not say, “Why were the old days better than these?” For it is not wise to ask such questions.”
‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭7:10‬ ‭NIV‬‬