Ever have one of those nights where you just can’t seem to turn your mind off? I’ve had way too many of those over the last several years. Grief messes with your circadian rhythms. Well, it’s probably more the cellphone usage in an effort to pass the hours till it’s time to get up. Let’s face it, I’ve never been a great sleeper, anyway. Add Politics, a Pandemic, and Parathyroid disease and you have a recipe for insomnia. 

Last week we had an appointment scheduled to make our wills. I was a basket case for days over that. It just stirred up too much angst and grief in me. I mean, who wants to go plan for the possible loss of another husband, right? We ended up having a phone conference to get things started, but I knew as soon as they were through with the paperwork, we would have to go into the office and read it over and sign papers. With that thought in mind, I was awake most of Monday night.

Once we had that phone conference and we actually said the things out loud, yesterday turned out to be really easy. We went over everything and got it all signed, dated, and notarized. Once we were finished and had kibitzed with the attorney for awhile over old Parkersburg stories, we took our very important papers and headed off for a late lunch and some shopping. The day was sunny, crisp, and beautiful. And, I felt a lightness in my chest that surprised me. I turned to Mr. FixIt and smiled.

“I feel like such a grown up!” I said with a conspiratorial grin.

We both laughed, considering I’m soon to be 68 and he just turned 69. 

“Is this what being all grown up feels like?”

It’s just one of those things you do as a responsible adult. It’s something Mr. Virgo and I put off because we felt we had enough time. That’s the way it is, isn’t it? We always think we have time. But time is such a slippery thing. Before you know it, too much of it has passed and maybe it’s difficult to have the conversation, or maybe you’re afraid you aren’t on the same page, but at this stage in the game, it’s just downright irresponsible to go any longer without one. So, now it is finished and we’re all grown up.

I wonder what I want to be…now that I’m a grown up? I guess there’s still time to figure that out!

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“When we were children, we thought and reasoned as children do. But when we grew up, we quit our childish ways.”

1 Corinthians 13:11 CEV