I feel like I’ve been put through a wringer washer backwards. My world, my life was so perfect. I had what every girl dreamed of. Beautiful kids, sweet little grand daughters to love on, a darling house in the country, a dream job, great friends. And a handsome man to share it all with. I had it all. And in the blink of an eye, it all changed. I still have beautiful kids. I still have sweet little grand daughters. I have great friends. My dream job is over…at least that one is. My darling little house is an albatross I’m trying to get done with. And my handsome man is the memory that keeps me warm at night.

It was an exhausting week. Dental work and new glasses stretched an already tight budget. Haggling with the prospective buyers has left me drained. I met with my financial advisor and it was reassuring to know I’m not going to starve any time soon but she did dampen my parade somewhat.

I am a huge proponent of positive affirmations so why am I allowing myself all this negativity? Where is my sparkle when I need it? I realize I’ve been looking at this house sale through the close-up lens. I’ve been keeping my nose pressed to the glass. I need to step back and gain perspective. I can handle this.

It reminds me of when we moved Dan into this house. I kept dragging my feet. Not because I didn’t want him here. I just didn’t want to do all that moving. I wanted to go for a drive or to a movie or play golf. Heck, I think I’d rather have a root canal than move. And…darn it. I thought when we moved back here in 2011, it would be the last move I ever made. It wasn’t. And this one won’t be the last one either, likely. Someday I’ll move back to Colorado to live out my final years.

This picture is a sweet memory of a time when I had it all. I still have it all. It just looks different. Maybe these new glasses will help me see the beauty in that.