There have been many times in my life when I felt lost. I spoke the words into the universe and it became so. I believed it. And…there have been times when I was truly lost. I had no sense of direction. I was depressed, hurt, angry, grief stricken. Like the first year after losing Mr. Virgo. “Lost” doesn’t begin to describe what I was going through. I was the walking dead. The second year was worse but only because I was awake and aware I was walking through fire. The third year has brought many awakenings and amazing discoveries.

I’ve made a new best friend. She’s kind and caring. She’s smart and capable. She’s funny and tender. She’s a little crazy, but in a really good way. She’s brave. She’s so very brave. She’s assertive but not aggressive. She’s flighty but still dependable if you don’t mind her flexible schedule and her personal interpretation of time. She’s fiercely loyal yet when she’s done, she’s done. She’s really creative and wants to learn new things. She’s not very patient. And she’s kinda stubborn. I met her on the top of a mountain in Colorado. She was sitting there, really quiet, like she had been waiting on me forever. She was SO excited when I saw her and introduced myself. I swear, she hasn’t stopped talking since. She has so much to tell me about herself that some days all I can do is listen. Her words tumble out in an animated cacophony of thoughts. I have to laugh at her some times because she interrupts me and forces me to pay attention, like my baby did when she was two. She pisses me off sometimes because she calls in the middle of the night and wakes me up with new ideas or maybe a worry or two. But, I love her. I love her more than I thought I ever could. I see her every day. Our shadows are identical. She’s that amazing woman I see in the mirror. She’s who I am becoming. I am not lost. I am on my way.

❤️

“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.”

1 Corinthians 13:12-13 NIV