I swear, my brain is scrambled. I don’t hold onto info like I used to. I have to make lists. My decision making skills are practically non- existent. I feel strongly about something then two days later it’s something completely different. And, I don’t think it’s just me.

I have heard from countless widows who all say the same thing. Their thinker is broken. They make really poor decisions. They do things that are totally out of character. Research has shown that the IQ of a grieving person can drop to as low as the fourth grade. Add memory loss to that and it just isn’t a pretty picture. I mean, it’s certainly better than it was the first year. I honestly don’t remember great swaths of it. Which is nature’s way of protecting us, I suppose.

The only thing I can do is force myself to stop and consider the big picture…something that has always challenged me. I am much too distracted by the sparklies of life. 🙂 I pray…a lot. I meditate. I sleep….much better than I ever have actually. I’m trying to eat better but it’s difficult when you’re committed to not dirty up your kitchen. I don’t exercise which I’m sure would help.

BTW…the buyers backed out of the contract on Wednesday. I didn’t cave to enough of their demands and that is fine with me. I received another offer yesterday and I’m negotiating. I’m much more savvy after that first experience. 😉

So, the roller coaster continues it’s journey and I’m in the front car with my arms in the air…scared to death but LOVING the ride!