I spent countless years and a number of relationships trying to find my dad’s love and approval. When I couldn’t get it from him, I tried to get it from other men. I’ll never forget my therapist pointing out it was futile to have a different history with my dad than the one I actually had. I have been told by others how my dad spoke so glowingly of me. I saw how the congregation packed into the church for his funeral and sang his praises of being such a good man. I wish I could have known that guy because that’s not the guy I grew up with. It wasn’t for my lack of trying. He just couldn’t be who I wanted (and needed) him to be. Neither could my first two husbands. Then Mr. Virgo came along. He gave me everything I needed and then some. It took awhile, but finally my fear of abandonment and my need for approval subsided.

I think age and circumstance has diminished my NEED to be liked. Ummmmm…ok, I don’t worry about it nearly as often as I used to. Alright…I’m working on it! Ok? lol I try to focus on pleasing God and seeking HIS approval. That’s all that really matters to me in the long run.
Isn’t it funny how some people get this…and there are others to whom the entire concept is totally foreign to them? That’s what I love about “The Ranch”. No matter what, there’s SOMEONE out there that’s going through the same thing and there’s comfort knowing A) You’re not alone! and B) You’re not crazy! It’s a great big ol’ world out there and we have far more similarities than differences. And I am ever grateful you are here.

❤️

“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.”

Galatians 1:10