This quote is the honest to goodness truth. When I write, I feel as though I have given blood. And you all are that welcome glass of orange juice you get afterward. 🙂

I am counting down the days till the one year anniversary of Mr. Virgo’s death. As I do, I am ruminating over what has been most beneficial to me on this grief journey.

First and foremost would have to be the close, personal relationship I have developed with Jesus. I placed Him in the position of being my Heavenly husband and look to Him for guidance and companionship like I did with Mr. Virgo. He has let me see marvelous things.

Second would have to be the love and support from my family. Without them, I’m not sure I could have gotten through this.

Third would have to be writing this blog. I committed the first day to spill my heart out…good, bad, and everything in between. I vowed to be totally honest whether I felt you would like it or not. Whether i felt I would like it or not I pray over my keyboard before I write. I pray for the right words and for the readers to find me who need the message. The feedback and words of love, support, understanding and encouragement are truly mind-boggling and humble me greatly. You have no idea how instrumental this exercise has been to my healing.

The fourth most important thing was developing close, personal friendships with supportive, loving people who let me be…me. Total and complete unconditional love with a huge dose of tolerance thrown in. The people I could call anytime, day or night. The friend who came to sit with me in TOW-Wanda and talked till dawn because I couldn’t make myself sleep in my bed. The one who opened his heart to me, becoming my mirror so I could see who I really was and know I wasn’t ready. My fellow Sisters on the Fly who helped me find my wings. My Thursday coffee klatch. My buddy, and fellow victim of love lost too soon, who helps me find the next rung on the ladder. The baker gal from California that I met through Marshmallow Ranch who is developing a very cool business idea with me. I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart.