The momentum is shifting here on The Ranch. I have a vision. A very clear vision of my books in print. I can see them on shelves. I can see myself at book signings and giving talks and being interviewed. I have been a visual person all my life. I’ve learned to harness that and use it to create my life. While I am a Christian, I also believe the Lord works in mysterious ways and we cannot come close to understanding how it all works. All I know is, there have been numerous times in my life that I have prayed an intention out into the universe and handed it over to God, and I literally step back and watch Him work wonders. It comes across to some people as something bordering precognizant but that’s not it at all. It’s trust, and faith, and hope all wrapped into one.

Two years ago I was paralyzed with grief. I could barely function. Thank God I had my family and good friends who would just sit and listen to me cry and they didn’t say a word. There was nothing TO say. By just sitting quietly, I knew I was loved. I knew it was safe for me to let my guard down and cry from the marrow of my bones. On New Year’s Eve, I just wanted it to be 12:01 to get that dreadful year over with. I didn’t want to breathe any more 2013 air. Even though the strike of 12 only meant a little over nine months had passed since Mr. Virgo’s death, to me it meant I had turned a corner. The continued sense of relief I had hoped for failed to hang on though, and I was quickly back on the roller coaster of grief.

Now, two more years have passed. 2014 was difficult being awake and in pain. 2015 has been so much better. And what I’m feeling is this certainty. God’s got this. I asked and He’s lining up every connection I need to make things move forward with my writing. It has this special feel of ease…weightless, effortless. A big, giant trail of neon breadcrumbs. It’s all so peaceful, this faith.

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“He said to me, “Son of man, stand up on your feet and I will speak to you.” As he spoke, the Spirit came into me and raised me to my feet, and I heard him speaking to me.”

Ezekiel 2:1-2 NIV